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by f1ymetothemoon (f1ymetothemoon)
at January 15th, 2006 (03:47 am)

Bi-polar, 34, mama to a 6yo Aspie (Asperger's Syndrome) boy, and almost 11month cutiepootieboy.

I've only been half-ass diagnosed by various psychologists over the years, but I'm classic bi-polar, and sometimes I think I'm absolutely frikken nuts. I hope my kids don't grow up thinking I'm a total whackjob.

I'm on a very low dose of Welbutrin right now since I'm breastfeeding, and I think I'd like to look into an anti-anxiety med as well (any suggestions?). Mostly I joined because I'm interested in reading about everyone's cycling, wanting to compare it to my own to see how extreme I might be. I probably should see a psychiatrist one of these days, eh?

Anyway, "Hi".

ETA: It didn't occur to me when I made my intro to list the ADs I've tried...
Welbutrin (currently)
One or two that I can't remember the names of, but if I remember I'll edit them in


Posted by: I live to live moments like these. (apeystar)
Posted at: January 15th, 2006 12:33 pm (UTC)

Welcome to the community =)

You do know that taking an antidepressant without a mood stabilizer could result in a major manic attack, right?

Posted by: f1ymetothemoon (f1ymetothemoon)
Posted at: January 15th, 2006 11:20 pm (UTC)

I'm no stranger to panic attacks. But since I've been on Welbutrin I haven't had any. I don't know if it's the Welbutrin or just luck.

Posted by: End of this (the_living_end)
Posted at: January 15th, 2006 05:06 pm (UTC)

yeah- what apeystar said!
thats how i found out im bipolar!
as for anxiety- i was on paxil. it worked very well for me BUT it spun into a 6 month mania. also it isso extremely difficult to get off of that i coul never recomend it to anyone who wasnt in to making a life long commitment to it.
cycles- when im unmedicated my moods flux about a hundred times a day.
"im so happy!"
"im going to kill myself"
"i hate you!"
"i love you more than life!"
"im going to kill myself"
"i am soooo happy!"
etc so forth.

Posted by: f1ymetothemoon (f1ymetothemoon)
Posted at: January 15th, 2006 11:36 pm (UTC)

Sounds like my cycles when I'm unmedicated. I still have cycles on Welbutrin, just not as closely packed together - more like days instead of hours.

Paxil had a really scary effect on me that's hard to describe. It made me think about death constantly, but not in a suicidal way. I was always pondering when this person or that person was going to die and thinking gruesome thoughts about how they might die... I thought I was going crazy. I quit the Paxil cold turkey and the death thoughts lasted for months, and I wasn't sure they would ever stop. I thought it may have damaged my brain for good. Thankfully the effects finally played out and ended.

Posted by: End of this (the_living_end)
Posted at: January 15th, 2006 11:57 pm (UTC)

oh wow. thats awful. paxil is so weird. it helped my anxiety soooo much but screwed me completely!

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